My Comp Breathed His Last

And so it died. The funny thing is... I am not very bothered about it. Which feels strange. Army has lessened my dependence on computers. I have begun to be increasingly lazy to use the computer. Which is a good thing.

Or maybe its just because I'm always using my Sis laptop, which is faster and has less problems. And it actually produces sound (gasp, gasp), unlike my dying desktop.

I remember when I was young, having a nice computer with a powerful graphics card capable of playing modern 3D games is what I coveted. It was called AGP graphics. 256mb Nvidia Geforce 4 Titanium or something like that (that was years ago). Since then the technology has advanced to using a PCI-express slot and I have not bothered to keep up with it. I always yearned to have one of those giant machines and spend my whole day playing computer games...

...until I realized I could do without them. I should do without them. That is not the way to live life. The funny thing is I have grown to see them (computer games) as becoming more and more meaningless.

Once in my JC years I went forward of the class (we were told to describe ourselves in a civics lesson) and I commented about this issue. I said that I used to love playing games, but I have found them to be more meaningless nowadays. I also said that I am looking for meaning in doing things in life, to have a direction in life. And everyone in my class just listened to me. Because I was giving a very weird speech about meaning in life, when others were like, causally describing their personalities and character. And I was preaching about the meaning of life! I think I might have went on to talk about Jesus Christ if not for the fact that it suddenly dawned upon me that I was in a school, in front of the classroom with 20 people and a teacher listening to my speech about - the meaning of life!?

And so I stopped. Ok, the point is, games are quite meaningless, though sometimes I do spend time playing with friends to catch up abit. Of course there is no catching up during the game, but after, unless you include those in-game messages of

Player #1: n00b!! wahahaha
Player #2: lol!

as catching up.